Menstrual Pain with Laxatives =Not a good mix.

Im so depressed since my last post i've put weight on I'm too ashamed to tell you how much.

And too make matters worse i came on my period today.

Great.

I really want to screw that i am going to loose this weight for the past 2days i've been trying properly now .

My stomachs loooking pretty flatt again but im heavy so give a shit.

ok this is my stomach now hhaaa ,i keep doing this thing right now were im drawing smiley faces on it when im bored.I know its immature but oh well

thanks for commenting and good luck everyone X

Yesterday

1 baby orange

2 chupa chups lolie pops

1 glass of apple juice

Weight this morning : 111.6

Nearly at 109 again. I keep thinking about when Im 109lbs i'll be so close to my final goal but when I get to 98lbs ,will everything be over? does everything just suddenly go back to normal?

Im really doubting that.

There's no going back now.

Much love X